CHALLYUISM

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

It’s almost 4AM and I’m supposed to wake up in 5 hours so I can study. Got back from a church retreat yesterday and I’m sad it was over so soon. I definitely gained from the experience and Pastor Benjamin Robinson far exceeded any expectations I may have had.

I went to Wing Stop with Won and James tonight and I felt like I got a small glimpse of heaven. No one was talking, just stuffing our faces with 4 different flavors of buffalo wings, fries and veggies (which I passed on). James commented on how dark it was despite that fact that it was only 6PM. I didn’t even notice, but I loved it. I love cold/dark weather…

I embrace the change in weather, but only cause it’s predictable — it’s the same cycle every year. Change is a weird thing. Most of the time, I’ll go into it kicking and screaming, but once the novelty of it subsides I’m all like “Hey, this isn’t half bad. Actually, it’s kind of good!” Whenever I have to endure any kind of change, I’ll look back in retrospect and always conclude that it was for the better, but it never eases change I’ll have to go through in the future. I hate that I can’t manipulate something because I don’t know enough. I hate uncertainty and not having control. But as Pastor Benjamin said, how much control do we REALLY have? Give what little control we have to God and trust in his power and strength, not my own cause it’ll all be in vain.

I mean I am not happy about having to leave Davis and entering “the real world.” How scurry does that sound?! The REAL world! There’s a famous quote I that comes to mind, but I can’t remember it so I’m gonna google it real quick…

To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly. - Henri Bergson

Change is a natural part of life — it’s never ending, but it never gets easier. I think part of what scares me is that to change is to mature and I’m such a kid at heart. I think I’ll always will be. But part of what gets me through is that I don’t agree with the preconceived notion that being mature means to be serious and boring all the time. Screw that! Maturity for me is about knowing when to have fun and act silly and not losing that aspect of yourself. It’s about being able to laugh at yourself and not taking yourself too seriously. To know what’s truly important in life and putting it before yourself and your own desires. To be humble enough to be proven wrong without your ego taking a beating, even if the person doing so is 10+ years your junior. To be open to change and greeting it with open arms cause you know God wouldn’t thrust you into something he knew you couldn’t handle.

I was reading this thread on addictions and people shared videos of this woman who was addicted to toilet paper…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kdTZK3-fcY&

And a woman addicted to sleeping with her blowdryer…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9C81mDraT0

Then people started to share their own additions:

tsurah: I taste things. Like bubble bath, shower gel, lotion and creams… When people at work get new things, like from the Avon, they know not to let me sniff it as I’ll also taste it.

sandvich: When I was in elementary school, I was addicted to filling my ears with Elmer’s glue. Like, if there was a bottle of glue near me, that motherfucker was going straight into my ears. I liked to let it dry there and then peel it out later. Coincidentally, I didn’t have many friends in elementary school.

fwee_prower: Let’s see. I’m addicted to Sugar cookies, Pineapples, possibly gambling, possibly drinking, possibly i have a sex addiction.
-> adb7: At first I was like ooh thats kind of cute, just cookies and pineapples!

housebrownie: not sure if this an addiction or compulsion but if i smell something I don’t like I have to spit, because if I don’t I feel like the energy of the thing is going to consume me and take over. and it’s not necessarily with something that actually smells BAD, just certain random things I think are bad. since spitting is not always possible sometimes I have to find a way to kind of subtly do it, like on my hand. ugh typing this out makes me realize how weird it is..

likegrecianart: I don’t really have a weird addiction, but I am seriously afraid of butterflies omg…….
-> theratwhispers: I don’t understand how anyone can be afraid of butterflies. They do nothing. Now Praying Mantis are nature’s assholes. 

mario_06: I have more compulsions rather than addictions. Like I HATE odd numbers and I count things…and when i feel anxious I want totouch corners
-> polarbearparty: IA about the odd numbers. Like the TV volume, temp, etc. all have to be even, preferably w/ 4 in there somewhere. I feel like odd numbers are somehow bad luck or something. Surprisingly, I’ve met a lot of people w/ this weird odd number issue. I wonder what it stems from. 

I was looking at my tumblr’s visitor’s stats this morning, for the hell of it. Nothing surprising — 10 people, considering I haven’t posted anything in a while. I made my last entry and checked again a bit after and a huge unprecedented influx of traffic. About 300 people in a span of 3 to 4 hours.

I have a visitor map and it shows only the last 300 people. In 3-4 hours these are the people that came through my page:

What the hell. Where are these people coming from and why? The thing is, most, if not all, of the people who subscribe to my tumblr won’t get logged since they view my entries from their dashboard.

It’s funny cause I was at Moises and Hannah’s potluck and we were talking about conspiracy theories and the alleged power of secret societies. We also mentioned how the government is constantly keeping tabs on certain groups and closely watching them online. Did you know that if you go onto the Wikileaks, KKK, FBI, or etc.  website your information gets permanently logged in government databases? Yeah, it does. So my initial reaction was that maybe I was in violation of some federal law and disseminating sensitive information. But then I remembered that I’m a nobody. Whoops.

1. Drink orange juice.

Flavonoids, the antioxidant-like compounds in OJ, may offset the heart-damaging effects of a calorie- and fat-laden meal, suggests a 2010 study in The American Journal of Clinical Nutrition. In the study, people who drank orange juice with a high-fat, high-calorie breakfast (51 grams fat, 900 calories) had lower levels of harmful free radicals and other inflammatory markers associated with heart disease after the meal than participants who drank plain water or sugar water and ate the same breakfast.

2. Eat fruit.

If you’ve indulged in a decadent meal, follow it with fruit. Eating antioxidant-rich fruits—including berries, grapes, kiwi and cherries—helps minimize the harmful free-radical damage that occurs after a meal. Eating caloric meals without antioxidant-rich foods like fruits and vegetables can have harmful effects over time.

3. Drizzle vinegar.

Having a tablespoon of vinegar with your meal, perhaps drizzled on your salad, may temper the spike in blood sugar that occurs after eating a big, carbohydrate-rich meal.

For most of us, a steep rise in blood sugar triggers an equally rapid drop—which stokes appetite. This sugar surge is particularly a problem for people with diabetes, who can’t clear glucose effectively (over time, excess glucose in the blood damages tissues).

4. Drink wine.

The antioxidants in red wine may reduce the negative impact of high-fat foods by lowering levels of a compound—produced in the body after eating fat—that’s linked with heart disease. Cook with red wine or enjoy a glass with dinner. But remember, moderation is key!

Ines Ligron

Although targeted towards overeaters, tips can be used and beneficial for just about everyone.

Engaged. And I know I should be ecstatic for my friends, but what can I say? I’m that bitter ex. But all that aside, I decided to congratulate them by volunteering to be ring bearer and wedding singer — free of charge. This is extremely generous on my part, considering my fee is extremely high and my rider is about 20 pages long. I was almost classically trained by Ms. Young Hee Kim and released a single with Jubilee Entertainment’s Playa Boyz, so my qualifications more than suffice… as if anyone was questioning it. LOL! Ms. Kim, btw, put on an amazing performance not too long ago at her headlining concert, accompanied by her friends, also musical actresses flown in from Europe. And I know there are a lot of rumors that I have been kicked out of the band due to various scandals, but I’d like to put that to rest by saying I’m still a part of Playa Boyz! And we haven’t disbanded! Mickey is just promoting his first solo album, which I’ll talk more about later. I know my fans are worried, but don’t worry, ok? I might be releasing some solo work too, so don’t get discouraged. Mom, I’m talking to you. 

Wow, major tangent. But I have a bit of a predicament and I’m hoping you guys can chime in and help me solve it. I still have yet to decide what song I would sing at Susie and Tony’s wedding and I think I’ve got a few possibilities:

1) Wedding Dress by Taeyang - Wedding theme and about a guy who lost the girl to his friend. He is definitely not happy that this wedding is happening. Kind of like me, cause I’m the bitter ex. Duh.

2) Destiny of Love by Yiruma - Which would be easy since it’s completely an instrumental piece.

3) Four Seasons of Lonliness by Boyz II Men - Cause vocally I can handle it. I mean, I’ve been called the voice of a generation. My voice has been compared to and described as heaven sent, the male Christina Aguilera, powerhouse, etc.

4) Anything by the Black Eyed Peas - This way I can work in some choreography and show everyone that I’m a triple threat.

5) Wait (The Whisper Song) by Ying Yang Twins - Cause I’m just that old-school romantic.

6) Heartbeat by 2PM - At the end of this song I would rip my shirt and expose my sculpted body, exactly like Taecyeon in their performances.

So that’s all I have for now. If you don’t know what any of the songs sound like or whatever, I suggest a quick search on youtube. I’d appreciate any feedback. Tell me what you think!

Gage: Mr. Zuckerberg, do I have your full attention?
Mark Zuckerberg: [stares out the window] No.
Gage: Do you think I deserve it?
Mark Zuckerberg: [looks at the lawyer] What?
Gage: Do you think I deserve your full attention?
Mark Zuckerberg: I had to swear an oath before we began this deposition, and I don’t want to perjure myself, so I have a legal obligation to say no.
Gage: Okay - no. You don’t think I deserve your attention.
Mark Zuckerberg: I think if your clients want to sit on my shoulders and call themselves tall, they have the right to give it a try - but there’s no requirement that I enjoy sitting here listening to people lie. You have part of my attention - you have the minimum amount. The rest of my attention is back at the offices of Facebook, where my colleagues and I are doing things that no one in this room, including and especially your clients, are intellectually or creatively capable of doing. Did I adequately answer your condescending question?

Erica Albright: Why do you keep saying I don’t need to study?
Mark Zuckerberg: You go to B.U…

Divya Narendra: He gave himself a 42 day head start cause he knows what apparently you don’t. Which is that getting there first is everything.
Cameron Winklevoss: I’m a competitive racer, Div. I don’t think you need to school me on the importance of getting there first. Thank you.

Cameron Winklevoss: What Do you want? To hire an IP lawyer and sue him?
Divya Narendra: No I want to hire The Sapranos to beat the shit out of him with a hammer.
Tyler Winklevoss: We don’t have to do that.
Cameron Winklevoss: That’s right.
Tyler Winklevoss: We do that ourselves. I’m six-five, 220 pounds, and there are two of me.

Honestly, who else was peeved by the Mark Zuckerberg character? The Winklevoss’ told Zuckerberg their idea and business plan in confidence, but he turned around and stole the very thing that made their niche, in the social media market, novel and had the audacity to play victim. Mark Zuckerberg was a pretentious douche bag that clearly didn’t have a grasp of business ethics.